brenda | 20 | nyc
future nurse. aspiring traveler. always derpin'
family. friends. peanut butter cups. warm sweaters. florals. scones. madrid. tea. fashion. lattes. movies. books. sleeping. traveling. laughing. europe. shopping. autumn. puppies. pumpkin anything. airports. nyc. cupcakes. indie/punk pop. monet. brunch. selfies. ice cream in any weather. sitting in cafes. chocolate chip cookies. sunny days. disney. macarons. chilly nights.

*has emotional breakdown choosing what to eat at a restaurant*

LOL omg me everyday when im trying to figure out what to eat for lunch


I’m sorry I didn’t take better care of myself before you came along. If you are still fat, I forgive you. If you are still lonely, it is okay. If you are still living with your parents and sleeping in the same room you fell in love in, that is alright. I am sorry if my younger self set you up for failure. I am sorry if you still haven’t learned to speak the way you write. I am sorry if you still think about him, after all this time. Some days are going to be hell, even if it’s freezing outside and you haven’t gotten out of bed yet. I am sorry about this. I forgive you for doing lonely things, for kissing strangers who taste like burning buildings, for talking to yourself, for spending New Years hoping the world ends before you turn 26. I forgive you if you aren’t always strong, if you’re still so scared of going to the doctor that you get panic attacks and your mom wonders what happened that made you this scared of your body. If you spend the summer writing screenplays that you don’t show anyone, I forgive you. If you sleep through a job interview because you’re too scared, I forgive you. If you decide you don’t want kids, ever, I forgive you. Some of us still have child hearts that we haven’t learned to nurture properly, and that is okay. I am sorry for running away from him when I wanted him most. I am sorry if you see him and he has forgotten you. I am sorry that I never told him, or any of them, that I was a sun buried underneath lightyears of silence, and that they didn’t deserve to have to wait for my light to reach them. I hope you are kind to yourself. I hope that, when you are sad, you are patient with your pain. I hope you know that there is still a way for you, that, despite everything, your body wants you to keep going, even—especially when, you feel like everything inside of you is dying.”
— Caitlyn Siehl, A LETTER TO 25 YEAR OLD ME ” (via alonesomes)


Its not a party until someone cries about a boy not liking them

LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL laughing so hard because i was guilty of this a few months ago while drunk (y)



today my professor told me
every cell in our entire body
is destroyed and replaced
every seven years.

how comforting it is to know
one day i will have a body
you will have never touched.

oh that hit me right in the heart


let 2014 be the year you decide you deserve more

that you demand better

and that you won’t settle for anything less than what your heart desires



I am not anti-social, I am selectively social. 



if you think that you are starting to get a crush on someone

  • dont
  • what are you thinking
  • abort mission
  • digest those butterflies

digest those butterflies 






"we almost dated" is such a weird relationship to have with someone

Plus the sequel “we never got closure”

And then the side adaptation “as a result I have a weird crush that never died”

my life forever and always 

My situation right now.

wow hi to me currently

"Sometimes you can’t let go of the past without facing it again.”
— Gail Tsukiyama, The Samurai’s Garden  (via bdmar)
"Nobody goes through life without having their heart broken and one day you’ll wake up and it will be okay.”
— Alexa Chung (via perfect)
"Don’t ever mistake my silence for ignorance, my calmness for acceptance, or my kindness for weakness.”
— Anonymous  (via philophobichearts)
"Before you know it it’s 3 am and you’re 80 years old and you can’t remember what it was like to have 20 year old thoughts or a 10 year old heart.”
— This is the scariest fucking text post I’ve ever read (via 6bitch6craft6)
"i’m not a girl
i’m a storm with skin”

(via ojiru)

Everything you love is here

(via lovequotesrus)

"I no longer have the energy for meaningless friendships, forced interactions or unnecessary conversations. If we don’t vibrate on the same frequency there’s just no reason for us to waste our time. I’d rather have no one and wait for substance than to not feel someone and fake the funk.”
— Joquesse Eugenia (via sleepless-reverie)
"Spend your time on those who love you unconditionally. Don’t waste it on those that only love you when the conditions are right for them.”
— Unknown (via psych-facts)