*has emotional breakdown choosing what to eat at a restaurant*
LOL omg me everyday when im trying to figure out what to eat for lunch
DEAR 25 YEAR OLD ME,
I’m sorry I didn’t take better care of myself before you came along.
If you are still fat, I forgive you. If you are still lonely, it is okay. If you are still living with your parents and sleeping in the same room you fell in love in, that is alright.
I am sorry if my younger self set you up for failure. I am sorry if you still haven’t learned to speak the way you write. I am sorry if you still think about him, after all this time.
Some days are going to be hell, even if it’s freezing outside and you haven’t gotten out of bed yet. I am sorry about this.
I forgive you for doing lonely things, for kissing strangers who taste like burning buildings, for talking to yourself, for spending New Years hoping the world ends before you turn 26. I forgive you if you aren’t always strong, if you’re still so scared of going to the doctor that you get panic attacks and your mom wonders what happened that made you this scared of your body.
If you spend the summer writing screenplays that you don’t show anyone, I forgive you. If you sleep through a job interview because you’re too scared, I forgive you. If you decide you don’t want kids, ever, I forgive you. Some of us still have child hearts that we haven’t learned to nurture properly, and that is okay.
I am sorry for running away from him when I wanted him most. I am sorry if you see him and he has forgotten you. I am sorry that I never told him, or any of them, that I was a sun buried underneath lightyears of silence, and that they didn’t deserve to have to wait for my light to reach them.
I hope you are kind to yourself. I hope that, when you are sad, you are patient with your pain.
I hope you know that there is still a way for you, that, despite everything, your body wants you to keep going,
even—especially when, you feel like everything inside of you is dying.
Its not a party until someone cries about a boy not liking them
LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL laughing so hard because i was guilty of this a few months ago while drunk (y)
Sometimes you can’t let go of the past without facing it again.
Nobody goes through life without having their heart broken and one day you’ll wake up and it will be okay.
Don’t ever mistake my silence for ignorance, my calmness for acceptance, or my kindness for weakness.
Before you know it it’s 3 am and you’re 80 years old and you can’t remember what it was like to have 20 year old thoughts or a 10 year old heart.
i’m not a girl
i’m a storm with skin
I no longer have the energy for meaningless friendships, forced interactions or unnecessary conversations. If we don’t vibrate on the same frequency there’s just no reason for us to waste our time. I’d rather have no one and wait for substance than to not feel someone and fake the funk.
Spend your time on those who love you unconditionally. Don’t waste it on those that only love you when the conditions are right for them.